money
June 6, 2011
it all ends up in choices what you make. whether to follow this or pursuit something else. whether to buy this or postpone it for some later day. usually i end up torturing myself in questions if it is really necessary. am i worth the money i spent? could it be somewhat used in more reasonable manner? there have been few times where i have let it go and the feeling is amazing. easily goes away my opportunities of spending best days of so called early life. decisions drive me insane because the perfectionist of mine will always find its way to disapprove irresponsibility and fun.
should have been in another post but here it goes:
either way i have to be as much productive as i can be. this is the bottom line to follow. productiveness comes with the line of motivation and inspiration which apparently is extremely hard to cultivate for me. at this stage.
i need a muse, clear path to follow. or maybe a glimpse of attraction for starting to put the foundation for something longer lasting. all i get is disapproval from perfectionist, nostalgia and envy for people who seemingly have a happier life.
they enjoy themselves. i have to do the best to do the same.
